This is my second encounter with cancer. I can now list thyroid cancer, and now a combined gynaecological uterine cancer and ovarian cancer as part of my life history. Fair enough. I've been referred for genetic counselling and testing. I'm currently undergoing chemo and radiation therapies. Fair enough.
So why is it that I am suddenly developing a severe case of CSA? In every hospital waiting room I encounter the bright pink message everywhere. In my oncology daycare centre I spied a beautifully presented and produced magazine called 'The Beacon'. It was full of helpful advice and warm support for women undergoing breast cancer treatments. And I suffered an immediate and severe pang of envy. None of the messages were for me!
It's because none of my tumours are associated with the pretty pink cancer campaign! The Australian Breast Cancer campaign is a highly successful, superb business model for charity fundraising and awareness. Pink is splashed everywhere and the support for people associated with this form of cancer is huge. I am thrilled that this is so and I applaud the savy and business acumen of the McGarth Foundation and other breast cancer groups.
The point is that deep in the midst of this funky pink hoopla, I felt lost and very alone. Two kinds of cancers. People have told me that thyroid cancer was the one to get because its spread was contained, kind of. I think not. And now they tell me that my radical hysterectomy is also contained, kind of. I think not.
I know that the Cancer Council does a wonderful job and my husband is loaded up with helpful pamphlets, but alas, none of them are pink. I am not willing to get breast cancer so that I can feel that pretty pink glow. I'm just making the point that the breast cancer groups have done a superlative job in getting their message out, in raising funds and in nurturing the bodies and spirits of those affected.
Whilst here I sit, relying on family and my Facebook Support Stream to buoy me through, taking bits of information from here and there, enrolling in a feel-good/look good seminar.
And with a strong case of Cancer Status Anxiety.